Last post was March 3rd? Really? Cause it seems like it was just two days ago. Time is going by so fast and sometimes I don't think I'm really even 'here', if that makes any sense. I just mean that I'm going about my days and doing things and going places, but am I really aware of how it's all just flying by me? And am I making the most out of this time that God has given me?
I hope I am. I want to. Well, let's say that I'm trying. Sitting in church last Sunday, there was a family in the row in front of us. They took up almost the whole row, with mom and dad first; then oldest daughter and new husband; then youngest daughter and her fiance; then middle son and his fiance. A gorgeous family, inside and out! Did you notice any similarities there? Well I did. Daughter...Son...Daughter - same order as our kids. It suddenly hit me in service that this could be us (jon and me) in like 20 years! WHOA!! While I don't want to wish my life away by any means or not enjoy life with my kids right now, I couldn't help but think about the future. Isn't this whole parenting thing essentially about raising our kids to one day leave us? With very young kids it may seem odd to be thinking about that right now. However, I think I must think about it. Probably a lot more than I want to, and definitely more than I think about it now. Am I raising my kids to love Jesus and others? Am I demonstrating that to them every day? Are they seeing Jon and I love on each other, and cherish each other? Do I show them enough love and grace, but yet set boundaries and expect them to stay within those boundaries?
Well, like I said earlier, I am trying. One thing that has been tremendously helpful and rewarding has been doing a devotional with Jon each and every night. And praying together. I realized the other night that we have been married for almost 9 years, and I couldn't remember the last time we sat down together (just the two of us) and really prayed. I know we did our own thing separately, but rarely ever together. What a blessing it has been so far! I highly encourage all couples to start praying together, or if you already do, then keep it up! Also, try out a devotional together. We are doing one called "Night Light" by James and Shirley Dobson. It's wonderful!
So, I'm going to keep trying. Keep trying to make the most of my time, and to spend as much of it as possible with my family. I love them dearly. And I'm going to keep trying to be really aware of each and every situation, and not take for granted one second! One phrase that we use ALOT with the kids, and that has become one of my favorites, is when we tell them we love them, we finish it with 'no matter what'!!